alrite, so i think i've decided on what to do bout the whole be the hoe thing. oh and also, i'm gonna add in, that the guy that wants to do it, has a gf. they had broken up, but it's the same gf he was with, when me and him made out, but at that time, i didn't kno they were going out. but now i do kno, and she already hates me... i don't want to hurt her... i mean i put myself in her position.. and i wouldn't want it... but i already feel used enough.. i don't want do to it again... if i did.. this would be the second time i was used for sex, and the guy would have a gf again. it wasn't the same person... i really don't want to mention the first person... i'm just gonna say it was a bad idea.... hmm but its not like if i did it with the second i could have more risks then the first... considering the first was stupid... we didn't use a condom.. and he's had sex with alot of girls, so i coulda gotten STD's... not sure if i even don't anyways. but yeah the guy that i might be doing it with keeps saying he hasn't had sex.. but i'm not sure if i believe him... he knda lies a bit. but alrite, anyways... theres this guy in my karate class that i've been takin for a lil, and he's really cute and i really like him... but so yeah then the guy that wants to have sex came one time, i didn't mind it much, cuz i think the cute guy got a lil jealous, i dont want him to be like super jealous, just a lil to maybe show that he likes me... but yeah then my friend came again today, its his second time, but i was really suprised bout it... he never sticks to things much... sepcially girls... but he was there and like after a lil he like had his elbows on my shoulder, and the cute guy was like lookin, but while he was still lookin, i started like dancin and shit, to get him off of me. i think he still saw that. i don't kno. grr i wish i could just have one guy i wanted.... specailly the cute guy, his name is lee, i think its cute... and his gf broke up with him a while ago.... but i really like him... and i don't think he would use anybody... which would be a first to me..