why do i like him? i can't. i shouldn't. it's so stupid. he's like one of my best friends. but yet, i do. god. i gotta stop. he's in love with someone. he wants her. he has her. they'll always be together. i won't be able to ever replace her. he called yesterday, when i saw it was him, i was so happy. we talked for a long time. then she IMed me. he listened to what i said. cuz he wanted to kno what she was saying. he started missing her alot. he wanted to be with her. today, he called me again. i was so happy. we talked for a lil at first. he's telling me he's gonna stop smoking. at least trying. it feels like he keeps trying to prove to me that he can do it. i don't kno, maybe i'm just looking into it too much. maybe he says it to everybody. but he kept saying it. talking about him stopping. then we watched remember the titans together. that was so much fun. even though we didn't talk much. just knowing he was there though. then we talked a lil after it. he said he's gonna maybe do football next yera, i think it's funny, but i could see him doing it. he started talking about all his goals he had already set for himself. i think he can do all of them. cuz if he really wants to, he'll do it. then we got quiet. then it hung up. i thought he had hung up. since we weren't talkin. i was kinda sad bout that. but then he called back. yayyyy. hehe. so happy. we talked for a lil. but then his friend missi got online. she said she needed to talk to him, so he called her. i was gonna stay on the fone till he was done. but then he hung up. oh well i guess, we weren't talkin much anyways. earlier my mom was bein a bitch. askin if i was still on the fone and shit. i was on my cell. normally she gets mad if i'm on the house fone for a while. it hadn't been that long. so i don't get why she was pissed bout it. what fuckin ever. she's been in a bitchy mood all day today. it's sucked.