eh. really not feeling good rite now. i wanna be alone. at a friend's house. she's bein really touchy. she keeps giving me alot of hugs. and she'll like grab me over the back or something. and i just, really don't like it at all. i hate being touched. at least most of the time i do. i'm serious. i just hate it for some reason. i'm not sure why. i'm talkin to viv and justin on the fone rite now. guess that's alrite. even though none of us are really talkin. it's just nice to kno that they're there. that they're still my friends. even if i don't talk to them as much as i used to. i miss viv. i feel like i'm loosing her. i really do. i hardly talk to her as much anymore. and she doesn't tell me anything at all. i don't like it. i wish things could change. that they could go back to how they had been. but i'm not sure if they can. eh. i guess i'm gonna have to figure that out. and things with justin. blahh. it just all confuses me. like we can talk fine, the few times that we do actually talk. but we like hardly ever talk. really. and i don't like it. i wish i could talk to him more. like i used to. i used to be able to tlak to him all the time and shit. but not anymore. eh. i gues talking to him a lil is better than none. i have alot of things on my mind rite now. i just want to be able to be alone. but i can't. my friend kinda forced me to be with her. and i really dont wanna be. i'm not in the mood. i wish i could just be at home, and in my own damn bed. not be with her. and here. at her house. and she has a water bed, and it moves with every damn movement and i really really don't like it. cuz she's on the fone with 2 guys, and she keeps kicking her legs, or hitting the bed or some shit. and it kept moving while i was on it. and i really fuckin hated it. uhh. whatever. i'll write more tom. cuz i'm gonna hopefully leave her house early. cuz i'll have to go home and work on my damn project and shit. blehhh. whatever. only problem, is i have a razor in my bag i think. i didn't put it in today. it's been in there for a while. but i haven't used it yet. i just hope i don't use it tonite...