alrite. i'll finally put somethin. lets see... not much goin on... just a lil here n there. skools almos over, yay. haven't talked to anybody lately. only person i ever talk to or hang out with is wolfgang. woohoo. went to two partys on sat nite. first was a lil baby's party. n second was a kinda pool party. wolfgang took me over there. n they were gonna pick me back up in a lil. we hung around for the first lil bit. then played in the pool area. threw one girl in that had a swimsuit on. then pushed a guy in. then i got pushed in. clothes n all. great. alot people started to get in or pushed in. kept tryin to get out. wolfgang n them came n picked me up. was soaked. had to go home n change. meh so things lately have been alrite i guess. just been textin with wolfgang alot lately. didn't so much today. didn't really feel like it. not all that sure. but oh well. just figured i'd give him some space. justin said he might call last nite before he went to bed. he didn't. i knew he wouldn't. but it woulda been nice... meh. he doesn't give a shit bout me ne more. trust me. never talks to me. never asks how things are. just never cares... i have no more friends that are here n my age. or really ne where. lance n amanda are never around. they say they are. but it's not true. they aren't. they dont give a shit. never call me. never wanna do anything. never even bother with me... so why should i with them? i never hang out with hayley. hardly ever talk to her even. dont talk or hang out with lauren outside of skool. meh. she says she'll call. never does. that seems to happen to me alot. can't talk to viv. n when i can it's just for a short period of time. last nite she was on. talked to her for a lil. but i was really tired. things don't seem real anymore... i don't know what it is. but they just.. don't. it doesn't feel rite. it doesn't exactly feel like a dream. but yet, it kinda does.. i don't really know. i don't understand it. n i don't really like it. i wish i knew what was happening. what was going on... maybe i'll figure it out some day... but it'll have to be on my own... since no ones around to help... everybody's fading away