eh well lets see, what did i do today? not really anything. last nite i was talkin to vivvy. then she had to go. then i did my math hw. then i watched inuyasha... damn, i hate those memories it gives me... then i called lance and wished him happy birthday. hopefully i was the first one, but eh, he was on the fone with amanda, so she probably did. today at skool, lauren gave him a baloon and cupcakes. and people were doin stuff for him i think. i felt kinda bad... i wanted to give him something, but i didn't kno what. eh, he probably doesn't even care that i wished him happy birthday. had a half day today. that was nice. shorter classes. came home. watched aladdin. took a nap. went to drivers ed, it was my last drive time. i practiced parallel parking. i'm kinda sad that it's over. then came home and watched tv and shit. viv called, am talkin to her now. things that made today good: 1. half day 2. the guy i like in my class knos who i am 3. lance gave me a hug wow, well i thought there was more, but yeah, guess not. gee just look at what i have to look forward to every day. yeah, not too exciting. god, i wish i had more to look forward to each day. or too look back on and like about the day. but i don't. and it sucks. eh well me n viv just kinda got done talkin to justin. damn, it's nice to talk to him again. i've missed him. i wish we could talk to him each nite again. but he doesn't care anymore, if he ever did. uhh.... god, i just hate how things are rite now. nobody cares. nobody cares about me. i hate it. i want somebody. somebody to care. ahhhhhhhhh.... god... i just hate stuff. and i don't really kno how to put it into words... err... i'll figure it out later i guess... im gonna go talk to vivvy on the fone now. if she hasn't hung up on me yet that is.