arg. my arm hurts for some reason. i'm not sure why. but eh, guess i'll live. it's a good thing the teachers haven't been expecting much of us. i don't think i would be able to really pay attention. like of them when they talk and shit. it's alrite if i'm just doin my own kinda thing and shit. i have like two tests tom. but ones a take home test, the other i get to use a notecard. i still need to make the notecard tonite. but i can do that. and hopefully justin will call so i can talk to him and do it. and then this weekend i guess i'll just do my ipc hw. cuz i have kinda alot to catch up on. i'm still pretty sad about it. it's changed things. changed thoughts. changed people. but hopefully for the better. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ why do people keep thinking i like justin? - his gf, well ex now, asked me twice if i liked him. once cuz i told her that i kne him and shit. the second because i told her i had talked to him on the fone the nite before. - then zeke asked me if i liked justin. cuz i had told him i thought one of my friends would be disappointed in me if i did a friends with benefits with this guy. and he guessed justin. i asked why he guessed him, and he said cuz he was the person i talked the most about. i don't think i do... - and now steven is telling me i like him. just cuz justin hadn't been feeling great, so i put up an away message to ask if he was ok. and steven saw. i think he's just jealous. but it's really annoying. i'm tired of people telling me how i feel. or what i want. or just any shit like that. i kno how i feel. i kno what i want. can't they just let me live my own damn life? --------------------------------------------- it kinda seems like no ones around anymore. but i'm having a hard time figure out where they all are. i kinda feel alone and lost. i don't like this feeling. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> i have more ideas for my story. and i want time to do it. i just don't really have it. but i'll try to work on it. cuz i like it. cuz it's not my life. and i can make it into whatever i want. --------------------------------------------- i finished the book i was reading. it turned out good. but now i want another book. i need to read books to keep me going. keep me distracted. i don't like to stay in my life for too long. so i go into the books. it's better than staying here...