damn, is it just me, or is this year really sucky already? i still keep thinking about the past. and i still like justin. i like zeke also. and he's such an amazing guy. and i like roger, the guy in my class. hehe now he's in 4 of my classes. he used to just be in 3 of them. but it doesn't matter, i never talk to him. and i started liking him for a certain reason... i don't think i've ever said it in here or to anyone. so i'll keep it like that. amanda and lance aren't good.... things are bad actually. lance has a girlfriend. amanda has a boyfriend. but i think she wants lance back. i was tlaking to calvin today while lance and amanda were talkin. he said lance doesn't want her back. i haven't really talked to lance about it, so i don't know. but i hate this situation. and i hate being in the middle. it's the worst place to be. if you dont kno the guy, you can try to tell the girl to get over him, or you can try to tell him how much the girl likes him to get him to like her again. but then if you know both people, you know how both of them feel. and when they both don't feel the same, it really sucks. and then you feel like you should tell them so they won't get hurt when the person tells them, but you can't bring yourself to say it. argg. i just hate it. and then zeke was sad last nite, cuz one of his good friends is moving. and i don't think he'll have a computer anymore. that will really suck. he was really sad about it. and i couldn't figure out how to help. i tried. but i don't think i did any good. i'm not sure if viv still likes justin. i bet a part of her still does. cuz she loved him. and when you love someone. a part of you will always love them. no matter what. and also that's what im confused about with lance n shit. i just don't know. i wish i could help people. but i can't. i used to think i could. but maybe i can't. i don't know... i feel so useless when i can't help. and i hate it. why can't i ever do anything???