well i took my test today for karate. i think i did really good. i don't get to find out until wed though if i passed. grr i hate that. but i'm pretty sure i did. had to sparr as my last thing. went against lee and mr. tewes. 2 on 1, if you odn't think that's hard, your crazy. especially with lee. damn that boy was all over me. hit me in the head and stomach alot. but oh well. he makes you work, and i like that. and i broke all my boards, i had to break like, 9 of them. so all in all i think it was a good test. my friends confuse me. when they found out i had a test for karate, they all started talkin to me and wishin me good luck. and when i got back, they all asked how i did. but other than that. they never care about anything. but eh, oh well. i'm glad they cared about this. cuz i really really care about all this stuff. without it, i don't kno what the hell i would do. i was thinking the other day about cutting. and i was wondering. why did i ever used to do it? i mean, i kno my reasons for it. but now that i look back. i don't think they were ever good enough reasons. i think i just used to look things over a lil too closely. but i'm glad i've stopped. i don't need it. i don't need anything to make me feel better. just karate. and i kno i can always have that. or at least i better be able to alwyas have that. otherwise i don't kno what i'll do...