the reason i was asking about inuyasha, was because i think if nobody's ever seen it, then this all won't make too much sense, or it might, i'm not sure.... I like Justin a lot.. but I kno he’s like, in love with Alexis… and I mean that’s great… it just kinda sucks hearing about her some times… but at the same time, I love it… because I love havin him talk to me bout things like that… and I love to listen and care… speically when he might need someone or anything… but… blahh I don’t kno.. I really like him and shit… but I mean… I kno he’ll probably never really like me back… I mean yeah he used to say he did… but lately… he hasn’t said it… it’s been about… more than 4 weeks since he’s said that he likes me and shit… and so I guess it’s just faded away… I mean.. me and Justin always say that we’re like Inuyasha… Justin is Inuyasha and I’m Kagome… yeah well I always loved when we would watch Inuyasha together even… because Inuyasha likes Kagome, and Kagome likes Inuyasha… and the way Justin was about his feelings sometimes was kinda like the way Inuyasha was… but lately, I kno Justin hasn’t been watching it…. But there is a problem with the show… it’s that Inuyasha likes this girl that he had fallen in love with 50 years ago, Kikio… and well… like a few months ago, I just overlooked her and shit and figured that she was nobody in real life… but it turns out… she’s Alexis… and Inuyasha keeps wanting to go back to Kikio and wants to just forget about Kagome it seems… and that’s how I feel Justin is gonna be with Alexis… cuz she’s been in some place for a while now… but I’m afraid that once she comes out… he’s just gonna go back to her… and forget bout me… blahh i don't kno.... i'm just really confused about things... and i dont really kno if i should try to talk to ona my friends or not.. cuz i don't really wanna bother them with this stupid shit... and i don't even kno how good i would be at saying it... meh i don't kno... and then i was askin bout kenshin because... I’ve always loved Kenshin… I mean everybody knos that bout me… that’s like one big thing bout me… is that I love Kenshin… but lately… people have been trying to put Kenshin to a person, like Inuyasha is… but I don’t want that… because then it might make me not love it as much… I mean, Kenshin is really hot (I kno it’s just an anime but whatever) but I also really love his personality… and I don’t kno anyone with one like his… and so that’s just more of a reason to leave him blank and just maybe some day have it actually be filled…. I don’t kno, I almost think that Jeff could be Kenshin… but I don’t kno if that’s true… cuz I do like Jeff… I mean he’s really great… but I don’t kno if he would be able to be Kenshin…. Justin was trying to say zeke was Kenshin, but he only was saying that cuz that was when he found out Zeke loved me… but I kno Zeke couldn’t be Kenshin… I mean yeah Zeke’s really great, he truly is… but he couldn’t be Kenshin… and I’m kinda thinkin Jeff couldn’t either… I think Kenshin’s always just gonna stay as nobody… the closest person that ever got to being him… I would have to say… was Jennison…. Just because he had the same kind of spirit and love of life and everything as Kenshin does… meh i dun kno... Yesterday, when I was in the shower… I accidentally cut my elbow… but the part that scared me… was that I liked it… I had missed it… missed the pain… missed seeing the blood… missed the feeling of it… I just missed it all… I just hope I won’t actually do it… and this time have it not be an accident… but I think I can contain myself… cuz Justin said that next time I cut he would I think… and I’m not sure, but Zeke might still say that too… cuz I kno I would tell them… but I wouldn’t want them to do it… blahh I don’t kno… I really just wish I could just be happy more… cuz I have just been really depressed lately… but I think I can get myself outa it… I hope… that’s all I need… I just need myself… I can make myself better… cuz I don’t wanna bother anyone else… and also, cuz I don’t really think anyone can help with anything I’m going through… it’s just things going on in my mind that I can’t exactly control just yet… but I’ll get em done soon I hope…. But I don’t like how things are changing… but I guess I’m gonna have to help stop them, or help things get better with the changes…. blahhhh....