i hate the expectations i kno people have of me. where i can't do things that i want. or can't say what i really think. otherwise they will look at me weird. i wouldn't really care if they laughed. but then they would ask me about it or something. and i don't need to explain myself to others. especially when they aren't always there. there's thoughts in my mind that i'll never be able to share with anyone. because it might be strange. i actually do like trying on some dresses. but i've acted like i hate them for so long, people would act different with it. they would probably think i was crazy or something. but sometimes dresses are fun to put on. and i actuallly like to dance and sing. and not to sad depressing songs or something. songs from disney movies or soemthing. i odn't kno. somethin fun. exciting. with feeling. i've started to like to act like i'm a ballerina. but i kno if anybody saw, they would just laugh. but i have so much fun doing it. and i don't want to change it. i even want a frilly lil dress that i can dance in. but i'll never get it. cuz i'll never tell anyone about that. just like i don't ever want to tell anyone about other things i want.