nobody cares anymore. nobody listens to what i have to say. nobody wants to hear it. nobody cares about my thoughts. anything that goes on in my head, nobody wants to have anything to do with. they don't want to have anything to do with me. and why? i have no idea. they just aren't there anymore. and they don't care. so how can i call them my friends? i think the true, main ones there for me, always. are viv and zeke. - justin's there, but i listen to his problems, and when i talk, it seems like he doesn't care. - lance confuses me. i have no idea what goes on in his mind. one moment, he'll be there for me. the next, he ignores me and could care less about me. - amanda, hell, i never kno where the fuck she is. what the fuck she's doin. all that shit. she's never around. she doesn't give a fuckn shit bout me. she doesn't even make an attempt. she just doesn't care. - paige, i listen to her shit. listen to her problems. listen to her go on and on about her boyfriend. that's lovely and all, but it gets old. i hate always havin to hear bout people and their boyfriends. it's tiring. i don't have one. and it just makes me want one even more. ok well, yeah, i do kinda have shane. but it's different. he doesn't live here. hell, i've never even gotten to hang out with him n shit. i can't kiss him, hug him, hold him, fuck him hehehe. nothing. and that gets tiring too. i hate always just having to imagine what it'll be like.... is that sad? that's all my friends i could think of... damn, i need more friends.... maybe some of them would actually care then..