today's my friend calvin's birthday. i feel so young compared to all my friends. most of them are 16. and i'm still only 15. eh oh well. the last entry was really long, and i kno nobody read it. i don't think anybody reads this anymore, but that's fine. this is just a place for me to get things out. that's all i need. i almost went crazy the other day when it wasn't working. cuz i really needed to write in it. lance is pissing me off. he's doing so many stupid things. i don't want him doing all this shit. i wish he would just think about things. i don't kno whats wrong with him. and i have a feeling he won't tell me. i wish he would stop smoking, getting high, drinking, and kissing any girl he can. start paying attention in classes. trying to do better. talking. maybe try to get a girlfriend if he's ready. i don't kno what the fuck is wrong with him. but it bothers me that i don't kno, and that i can't help. viv just goes on like nothings wrong. she won't tell justin that she had cut i bet. she just ignores it. and i hate it. but i don't kno what else to do. i don't want her pissed at me for bringing it up. then she'll just acuss me of being mad at her, and maybe say i'm yelling at her. ----------------------------------------------------- you always speak good words of wisdom :) Mick. keeps me alligned readin them ^^^ hehehe i liked that. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO