god things have been so fuckin shitty lately. some people say highskools the best few years of your life.. it kinda has been for him... i don't kno.. i've enjoyed some, but hated others. i remember when i was little and never cared about much... and now i'm growing up, and trying just to help everybody, and then also ruining my life... damn i wish things could be like they used to.. but i guess that won't happen. sun i cut again... i wanted to tlak to justin.. but nobody answered... i felt so bad after i did it, i hated myself so fuckin much after it.. i didn't want to tell anybody... but then i decided to tell lauren... that was a bad idea.. she told lance, and i told him not to tell. but of course, he goes and fuckin tells amanda, of course, the girl he's in love with. he tells her everything. ya and then guess what? she told my fuckin mom. god that pissed me off so fuckin much... ya my mom hasn't talked to me bout it yet, cuz amanda told her she'd tlak to me. meh whatever, ya so then all of tues i was just pissed and shit. cuz amanda and lauren had coem over, lance had too, but he had already left by then. and so amanda was sittin in my room cryin, i was so pissed, i didn't really care. i just kept bein a real bitch. then they finally left, and i called justin. i got to talk to him, i liked it alot, him and his friend bobby made me laugh. cuz bobby answered the fone and was like h:"who is this" m:"brooke" h:"brooke who?" m:"just say brooke b" then justin came over there, and bobby asked him, and he was like bolliger, so bobby made fun of my last name for a while, then he finally left. so then i got to talk to justin, it was soo much fun. but then i cut my finger twice, i didn't mean to... but i was playin with some string, tryin to tear it off, and it was really strong.. hmm then that nite, i tried to call lance, he didn't answer, i tried hayley, she didn't answer. meh then i just called amanda, we talked for a while, cried, and all that stuff... hmm then wed, i only had one final. then just came home with lauren. kenley came over, we hung out. i went to get my hair done, it looks so good!! i got it cut, and it has blonde highlights, and red in it too, its really cool. hmm then we came home, lauren left, then as we were leavin to get my eyebrows done (at the same place) my dog escaped, so kenley left while me, novellli and my bro had to chase after her. hmm i kno lee's number, but only cuz i called my moms cell from it, and he's takin me to this thingy on sat, so i hope i can make a good impression with his mom, cuz she'll be the one takin us... hmm so today was last day of finals, i think i failed my math one. i'm already having to go to bio summer skool, luckily its just gonna be for a week, cuz there's this weird thingy my mom did or whatever, so its just gonna be a week which is alot better, cuz otherwise its 2 months. hmm i'm not too sure what i'm doin this summer. i'm gonna see if hayley can come over or something tom, not sure though. meh i told viv on mon about the whole thing with justin... she had just called rite before that.. and so she was crying on the fone... i felt so bad.. i think she's alrite now... i'm not sure... but i do feel bad... i hate hatred.... its worthless and does nothing good!