do you kno really kno what you complain about? do you listen to yourself? do you think about others? do you care about them? or do you just care about yourself? i kno you don't like her, but your going to have to get over it. he likes her, she's his friend, he needs her. you can't be so selfish and expect him to do everything for you. and have him get nothing in return. he doesn't like one of your guy friends, but he still lets yall be friends, because he knos you need him. so can't you think about him just once? he gives up so much for you. he wants you to be happy. don't you want the same for him? let them be friends, he needs her... why do you have to have everything the way you want? can't you try to go along with other things? can't you think about other people? care about how they feel? you say you do, but do you really? do you really care bout them? and what about the other guy? the one that you kno likes you too. the one that's been here. that you've seen. that you've hung out with. that you've kissed.. are you just going to lead him on? and then break his heart when he finds out the truth? how can you do that to him? how can you be so harsh to all these guys? what about my friend that likes you? do you like him? cuz if not, you need to tell him.. you can't keep leading guys on... specially the one your dating.. when i kno who you really love.. and it's not him.. it's one of our friends.. i see the way you act around him.. you flirt when you get near him.. you talk to him whenever you can.. you get mad when he's around the one he loves.. and yet your also sad.. because it's not you.. you kno you love him.. but think of what he wants? he wants someone that he loves.. and it's not you.. so you need to try to get over him.. and look for another that you may love.. and tell the one that you say you love.. that you dont really love him.. because you don't.. you can't love him.. but yet love the other guy too..... so you need to figure out your feelings.. and tell people the truth.. because i'm tired of all your fucking lies!!! --------------------------------------------- you used to tell me you loved me.. and then you stopped.. why? because you found someone else.. you started to date someone closer.. but you also always loved another.. one that you can never forget.. and i've finally realized.. i can never be loved by you.. i will always be around for you if you ever need me.. but you won't need me much, will you? you have others.. closer.. ones that won't get feelings for you.. and have to deal with the things you put them through.. you kno how i feel.. but yet you continue with how things go with you.. and then you tell another that you still love her.. but do you mean it? do you ever mean it? who do you mean it to? do you mean it for anybody? how can you love more than one? you can't.. and you have to make a choice.. who are you going to love? choose? you have to decide.. but you won't.. i kno you won't.. you won't want to hurt anybody.. but you need to not think about others.. and think about yourself.. and what you really feel.. because this is something i won't want to say again.... but.. i am going to stop loving you.. i kno it's not as easy as it sounds.. but i have to.... anybody i have ever loved.. i have had to try to stop.. and it's so painful.. to see them move on.. to see them love another.. to see them forget that i ever existed.. or ever loved them.. but it's what i must do.. and you will never even kno about it.. but even if you did.. would you even care..? --------------------------------------------- blahh i dun kno whats wrong with me... but whatever.. i'm going to do my hw now.. i really want to cut for some reason.. but instead, lately, i've just been giving myself bruises.. i punch myself till i can't take it anymore.. and i don't really even kno why...