I can't believe it. I thought I was totally over him. But here I go again. What it is with my emotions? And this time it's not one of those stupid school crushes. He's so mature, and funny and gorgeous. I can't believe I'm doing it all over again. I can't do this to myself. He's never going to like me, I don't even thinks he recognises me as his equal. What's my problem with this? I can't just let go. I guess it's because I'm reminded every day that he's there, he's perfect and he's never going to want me. I wish I could tell myself anything different. I'm not one of those people who can lie to themselves. Wish I was though. ----- Camden rocks.