Listening to: Razorlight - Somewhere else
Feeling: awake
12.00pm
I guess I am writing this just because I should, which is a pretty bad reason. I can't think of anything to say right now. So this is going to be as boring as it gets.
Ali's sitting next to me reading this and she wishes you to know that she is a sexy beast.
I'm sure she's right.
Yesterday was boring (cousin's party), but quite fun. He was very cute. This little girl called Rebecca was there, and her best friend didn't turn up, and she latched onto me and it was very sweet. She says she wants to invite me to her birthday party (she's 5). Bad thing was, I kind of picked up loads of little bits of the kids' food because it was help yourself, and I ended up eating lots of crisps and stuff and no proper food (unless you count random grapes and tomatoes as proper food).
Well that's as much as I can be bothered to say.
i dont think its all to do with family and stuff why i dont feel like that the whole time. i need to go out and be anonymous and start again, with nothing holding me back, but i dont think it will ever happen because i have too much here. Maybe one day when i finally pluck up the courage to leave, i will. But for now im staying put, (even if i wanted to go i couldnt). you wont remember me by the time i leave!
we'll both bugger off to different uni's and talk to each other once a month, then we'll get jobs and talk to each other once in three months, then we'll start families and just send xmas cards. i want to go as soon as i leave uni. thats the best time to do it i think. uni will prepare me for it too...
..say it. =)
it just seems so easy to start again. you can reinvent yourself with no ties and nothing holding you back.
it would be lonely at first but eventually you could do make something decent of yourself.
So It Took So Long I Had Writter'z Block :)
grapes stave off the scurvy, yarrr.