11.30pm Life is grand. Cat and I have decided the word grand is underused and are having a grand revolution. We were also being chavs for the evening, but the two didn't mix so well. Try saying 'innit grand' and doing a chavtastic hand gesture without laughing. I can't do it, but that's just because I am easily amused. I think I've had enough of today. I just want to go to bed now. I used to be the type of person who stayed on the Interent until five in the morning, but now I just don't have the stamina. I need my sleep. Lots of it. I feel very cuddly today, and luckily so have other people. I also felt tired today, and have fallen asleep on more than one person. I sometimes wish I wasn't so politically minded. It gets in the way of a lot of things, and tends to make it far easier to judge people more quickly, which I'm trying not to do as much anymore. It's easy to judge someone by the political party they support, and assume they support all the views of that party. "I accept that I am not always right, and it might be a matter of opinion." Now I just need to be able to say it utterly truthfully. On the boy front, today was an indifferent day, but that makes it a good day. I wish I thought less about what boys think of me, or why they don't like me. It just makes me think badly of myself all the time. I don't want to be more arrogant than I already am, but I would like to be less doubtful of my own abilities concerning almost everything. Happy weekend. ----- 9 years on the 2nd February, and I didn't even mention it this year. Am I becoming indifferent? About my own father's death? I'm such a loser.