I don't personally think I have changed, but it's time for a change. Time for a change in mentality, in enthusiasm, in what I do. I need to get off my arse and do something. So I'm starting to do middle distance. I've always been okay at it, always wanted to do it, but now I'm actually going to stick to it, join the gym, train at lunchtimes and go to the athletics club that I was going to go to. There's no point in putting it off anymore, I need to be fitter. So that's something I'm kind of hoping that I might be able to stick to, as well as the healthy diet thing. Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try, things just don't seem to happen like I want them to. I'm not going to say what I'm talking about because I sound like an arse, and don't ask me because I don't really want to talk about it, but I always hope and it never happens. And I feel like I've been trying for so long, and it comes so easily to other people. I don't know why. Am I bad person? Well, yes, I suppose I am. I'm selfish, pretty dense, incredibly jealous of everyone and everything. So maybe I've worked it out. I didn't need to spend all my evenings running it through my mind. I don't have a therapist, I've got my online journal And I'm never going to eat McDonald's again. Supersize me I watched some of it, but I couldn't face the rest. I felt like such an unhealthy pig. And I call myself healthy. Bollocks, I really need to work on that.