12.59am You cannot find Christ, because He is not lost. He finds you, and you accept Him. It was a good service this morning, we sang my favourite song. I guess for non-christians it's a little strange that someone can like church enough to have a favourite worship song, but that feeling you get when a song 'gets' you, when it makes tears come into your eyes and you know exactly what those lyrics are talking about, it's the same feeling. I want to be a good witness, but I can't help being the strange over-enthusiastic bible-basher now and then. I'm sorry. I got a copy of the DVD of my baptism, and I'm really happy, because it was a good service. When I was there I wasn't really aware of the service, I was so nervous about having to speak in front of all of those people. Now I have listened to the sermon I am going to have to thank Ian properly for preaching, he did a good job. Even as I watched the service back, my heart was pounding as I stood up on that stage. I even get nervous and embarrassed for myself when I know what's going to happen. I feel strangely calm today, and I want to stay with this feeling. I know that everything in my life is not perfect, I know that I can be a better person, but I am happy. I know that I will make an effort, and I am content with that.