4.20pm I feel like this is becoming very numb. Very unthoughtful. Very controlled. Which is probably better for all of you because you don't get my real feeling splattered all over the place making absolutely no sense to read. My uterus is nice to Gemma, but not to Susie. Strange. And it's leaking, dammit. I don't like being a girl. Well, most of the time I do but once a month I hate it. It's just so... irritating. This summer I really want to just sleep, and sunbathe, and swim. I really can't be bothered to be energetic. Mind you, knowing the English weather it will have cooled down a bit by the end of school so maybe I will actually be be bothered to do stuff. Probably not, to tell you the truth. The heat is just my excuse for not doing anything. We did some filming of our movie today, and we had to dress up as year 7s for it, and it was hilarious, everyone kept giving us really weird looks. Especially this 6th former that goes on my bus and used to go to my old school. I sat with her yesterday for the first time in ages and then today she sees me with my hair in a side ponytail, my blazer done up wrong and wearing white socks. Oh doesn't she think I'm cool now. I'm actually not bothered at how our movie turns out anymore, it's just bloody hilarious to shoot (if a bit painful) so I've got what I wanted to do out of it. Our IT lessons are a laugh, and we have a good time, and that's all that matters really. That's what we aimed to do. Our humour is kind of, different. Quite childish but really hard to understand why we find it funny for some people. But there we go, it's their loss. Ok, I'm going to go and do something worthwhile rather than sit here and write about nothing.