5.07pm Let's just relate my utter pathetic-ness to you first of all. I met a girl at Scout young leader training on Monday. She was really nice, we got on well (I had met her friend before). So we exchanged emails. So I added her. And looked on her MSN space thing. I was scared, because I recognised a guy's name, and his mates. I asked her if it was the same one. And it was. And then I got jealous. I am such a stupid little moron. They go to Scouts together, and that's it. I am getting far worse at pretty much everything I do at the moment, and it's making me less motivated and then I do less work. It's a vicious cycle. I never used to have to try, because we had no homework. All I had to do was remember facts and take them to school with me in my head the next day. I can do that. Why isn't it like that anymore? I want the old days back again.