10.44am I guess I shouldn't really write so many entries in succession because no-one will be bothered to go back and read them all. I think I might take quite a long time writing this because I don't have anything specific to say so I will go and look at other things and then come back and write more. So this might be a bit all over the place, but hey, who cares? It's my baptism in less than 3 weeks (it was 3 weeks yesterday). I think I have about 20 people to invite, who I have to make the invitations for. If all the other girls bring as many people as I'm planning to, then we won't be able to fit them into the church. It should be good! I'm having a rather lazy day today, which I might say is a pampering day. I need to wash my hair and shave my legs anyway, so that could count. I'm going to go now, and come back later and add much more to bore you all out of your brains. ----- I've just been back to read some of my old entries, and I feel really sorry for anyone who reads this diary with any regularity, I really have trouble making any sense when I write things down in here. I guess you're coping. Yesterday was a strange day. I felt slightly attractive for the first time in quite a while. I don't know why it came over me. I know I'm vain, I always have been, I seem to look in mirrors when I can (although I'm trying to stop myself doing that). Sometimes I wish when I write this I don't sound like such a preening little girl, but I know that's what I am, and I must accept it. Enough of me. Well, no, because I am selfish, this diary is devoted to me. And it always will be because I am always selfish. After my baptism I'm going to have a new start. A new Christian start. I'm going to really try to stick to all the things I said I'd do to be a better person. Now, as you know, I don't really need much improving... (joke) Yeah, anyway, so I'm going to make more of an effort, and I will try to do that before my baptism as well. So you can all look forward to a horrible bitchy me writing entries here, because this diary will be the way I let all of the horrible bits go...