10.05am I am yet again in a cover lesson listening to the hum of computers. Perhaps this is becoming too much of a regular occurance, I've had four of this kind of lesson in three days. That can't be good for my education. Cell group has changed a lot since we were first there, in good and bad ways. This is my bible study group. I do feel like we are more focussed now than we have been before, but then last night we spent a full ten minutes unable to speak from laughter. In other ways, it's changed for the worse. I miss Sarah. She can't come at the moment because she a viral thing that makes her really really tired all of the time, and I want her to come back. She hardly ever comes to church either now, she goes to another one a few miles away. I don't blame her, I know that the other church has a different kind of worship that I certainly enjoy, but I do miss her. Some people are going away tomorrow morning, on the German Exchange. It's strange, because I make fun of them [they are going to a different country to attempt to speak a foreign language] but if I wasn't away on the week of the French Exchange I would probably go on it. I just got Slap her, she's French! in my head, and I suppose it's strange, but I do have a lot of fears about the family being weird or the partner being really horrible. But I shouldn't worry because I'm not actually going on the exchange. I made a decision last night that to go out with anyone at the moment would be lying to myself, and to the other person, because I like this other boy too much. I guess I'm just stupid like that.