8.38am I feel like I have nowhere left to go. I've tried all the ways I can to get this feeling to go away, but I just can't. How can I pretend I don't care? How can I pretend I care? I know, I contradict myself. This is about two different things though. I feel like such an awful person. Yesterday people were telling me how nice I looked, and I just can't trust them anymore. I don't believe them. How can I when they're saying something that I think is the exact opposite in 'real life'? And how did I relapse into being such a bitch? Since when was I this selfish again? Since when did I cry at every single little thing again? Since when did I cry over them again? I'm sorry. I don't mean to hurt you.