i find the singer from cky's voice comforting...yeah...im worried...james is so protective of me...god i do care for the child ever so much and i dont know what to do...i mentioned my grades and my ditching problem...my mom is going to kick my ass...i talked to james and i kinda have an unfortunate habbit of voicing my feelings about stuff...im really scared of getting my ass kicked by here...i know its my fault...but im to scared to give my grade report to her...james is so worried about me and being so protective...it scares me when he is protective...hes one of those people who you know would give there life to make yours better...im just as protective over him but theres something in caring that much and having someone care that much that scares me...i mean hell we are best friends but how many people would actually do more then just say the shit??? i was blessed by something to have him...im a lucky little girl...im terrified about his trip up here though...hes flying on a plane...im always so nervouse about him traveling...it doesnt matter plane, train, car, bus, im always scared something is going to happen while he is traveling...oh lord...i love the child...but as my brother and more then that i love him as my best friend...yes my friends do have more loyalty than my family...its cause they listen to me and are there when i need them...the complete opposite of my family...im so scared of what he might do , and him getting hurt in some way (refuring both to my situation and the plane)i really wish either he or lawrence was with me right now...im so fucked in the head