well this might just be the end of the line for me and lawrence, rachael is back. she is the reason we didnt start going out last year. its a long fucked up story, its also one i dont feel like telling much cause it hurt and now that she is back its probably over. well i guess, im probably to fucking analytical for a relationship anyways, im always analyzing how we are around each other. well its been rough lately, to say the damn least, ive been grounded from the computer so contact with james is el fucking imposible. which sucks major fucking donkey cock!! yes as we can see im still a very passionate and vulgar young woman. ok well anyways i know that whatever happens with lawrence is probably for the better and james is there for me whatever happens, *insert a long rant about my undying love for my best friend right here* school is just miserable cause well i have a fucking 10 page paper due at the end of this misserable fucking week (actually thursday is when its due not friday) well yeah so this really blows ass....well whatever happens happens im ready for it, god why is even thinking today like preparing for battle?