god if only i could be with james right now - his dad is being an abusive dick and james is pushed to an extreme theres two things he threatened to do either go suicidal or homicidal...i dont want either!!! james has been suicidal before and all i want to do right now is hug him and kiss him and pull him close and tell him that it will be ok and he wont have to stay with his dad that much longer and that he is definatly not what his dad says he is - james is by no means a loser! hes the most amazing intelligent sexy sweet funny guy ever and ugh just....1400miles away from the one person i want to be there for in person....sigh.......if only i could find someway to tell him how i felt...he knows i love lhim but i cant express just how much - you know shit i would give him the world if i could and i would trade my life if he would be happy for even a milisecond - i would give him anything he asked for if i could....