yesturday night was just a huge drama...but i love james so yeah, i was waiting at the bustop in a shitty neighborhood talking to james on my cell, im a little white girl and this neighborhood was completely filled mostly with stupid gang fucks and fucking drunk old guys, i stick out because im so pale (i saw a guy thursday who was paler then me for a change, he was albino) and i wear mosly black, ive got long dark brown hair to so i stuck out, you can see my skin in the dark. but my cell phone went out and died(fucking battery sucks) james panicked, he knew i was in a shitty neighborhood and was alone, hes in kansas and cant do to much but he did call my mom and tell her and my mom called ed and tried to call lawrence (my boyfriend who i now have permission to date) so i finally got home at 11 (shitty timing, i could have been home earlier but the stupid fucking busses were late because of minnesotas ice castle just had to be downtown) mom was just pulling her jacket on to go look for me when i got home (i had to take a different bus because this drunk guy started talking to me again, im not going to tell james the drunk guy had been at my first bus stop and had started talking to me then screaming at me then tried to hit on me, im not even going to tell james there was a drunk guy, nothing happened no need to freak him out anyworse.) mom handed me the phone and jim was on it crying. i could have broken down right in front of my mom right there after hearing his voice i could tell right away he was crying he was on the phone with both of our (my) moms (i call his mom, mom as well as mine) he told mom (not my biological mom, his mom) that he would call her later i was safe (mom, his mom was worried about me but like him could do nothing as she lives in south dakota, she thinks james should go out with me, she actually told him to marry me) but i didnt break down in tears because that would be a loss of face in front of my mother. i would give the world if it meant james never had to worry about anything or anyone again, or ever be afraid , and always be happy (he had the dream again and says that he would be the happiest man in the world if it came to pass, exept we lived in suburbia and suburbia scares me more then the neighborhood i was stuck in last night) but i hope we end up like in that dream to...