text messages: "i just want to hold you and keep you safe from the world that did this to you" "tommorrow im going to kiss you until you forget all of this" "good night, dear." over the phone: he asked me all the usual stuff, why do you do it, why did you do it tonight, why did you start, when did you start, how often do you burn yourself, where do you burn yourself? how did you come upon this? and he said he worries about me sometimes. which kinda hit me. why should anyone care? especially him. hes sweet and yeah.....i told him how i felt on friday, alone, worthless, pointless. i didnt burn friday but i locked myself in my room with the radio turned up and i drew and made collages. i dont know its so cold today.....it might be tolerable tonight though, the cold. he puts an arm around me with his back to the wind and pulls me in close to keep me warm.....its sweet.