okay, blew up a cd in my computer - it was cracked, so now i owe luke a new chimaira cd, and mark is just gonna fix the cd rom drive. which is nice, mom is horribly pissed off at me. but she can go fuck herself becuase im sick of her shit to. yesturday just sucked. i swear my moms menopausal. sucked exept for i got to see jake, wich was cool. we bopped around downtown going to our busstop. pat told him to grab my ass (after a long attempt at getting me to grab jakes ass, which failed as im chicken shit) so yes, there we were middle of downtown pat accross the street screaming, grab her ass. i shruged ("meh sure why not?" i thought) jakes like get over here, so stuff happens and then a child cries mommy! lol anyways were gonna get lunch today i guess, hes pretty cool. simons still hotter. but jakes pretty cool, he told me i was hot, i told him "thank you your pretty to" (in reference to a conversation to the pizza place of, root beer and figeting) mom broke my diablo two cd yesturday. that kinda sucks. but i dont really game anymore so no matter. im still getting her her stupid gilmore girls dvds for christmas. she better be happy! because i really am getting frustrated with this shit. i fucked up and my best friend left me so i really dont think i have a place to stay, unless james' mom still likes me, but thats kinda tacky and its in another state. granted i could be close to my best friend but i think he hates me now. he would really hate me if he found out how fast im moving along after that nightmare of bad stuff that happened between us, providing he isnt out banging college chicks, which would actually suprise me as he isnt as hot as i told him he was, although he has a really nice body, exept for the acne part of it. thats actually kinda icky but i really cared about him and it never really occured to me that he had acne. he was just that sweet computer geek with wemon problems and an overly large romantic side. i forgot my cell at home so i really hope jake makes it otherwise im going to be all lonely at lunch. i dont really have much to say right now other then the ass grabing ended in two party hoots (yeah, cousin paul tought me something!lol, much love paul) so ive been thinking what the hell is the point of the human species and our existance? and why am i so stupid? mom told me i was stupid, she told me i was the biggest lump of stupid she had ever seen. which was just fucking sweet! i hate her. she is a bitch, im not stupid im just not really intersted in much aside from sleep, and caffiene.....