okay, ive suffered a deffinate loss of intelligence and literatness(<-point in case) in the past year, why i dont know, but i have a feeling its because ive been way to wrapped up in some shit with james. i need to get back to the point i was at where i could have a conversation with absolutely no gibberish and actual words. ive lost a lot of vocabulary. however, thankfully, my spelling has improved. i sleep to much as of late and its really starting to make life boring. i feel really awkward in school and social situations, actually im akward with pretty much everything that requires me to talk. i felt so ignorant today when nick asked me my interpretation of this amy lowell poem, but i think that might have been inevitable as ive never really been one to suffer threw long winded phrases that are comparing life to flowers. i understand them and there point however my mind trails off while reading it and i cant figure out what im trying to read. well im off to go finish some overdue (not yet but if i dont turn it in today it will be overdue) homework. if i fail....thats not an option actually so....