later: so yeah anyways i like this one guy cole but i love james and well tabbi and becca like cole to, but i dont think cole likes me - he likes a girl names sophia and her half sister claire, he also likes tabbi, but anyways i dont care because it really doesnt matter - i feel like the third wheel with everyone all of a sudden and thats just not cool. do you know what else isnt cool? that the one person i really want to be around me and who wants to be around me lives THREE fucking states away - there is quite litteraly ove 10,000 miles separating us...GRRR - needless to say im kinda lonely right now, my ex boyfriend is an ass and my best friend cant be around me right now....all i really need is a hug from somebody who actually cares other then bre (who i scared off today because shes getting on my nerves) and who isnt tabbi or becca - the hugs from my girls just arent helping (i mean my girls as i feel like there mother and somedays it sucks - but i love them and i love being there therapist so whatever)...arg?