sigh so yeah lifes been life lately. i still feel stuff that sucks (fat ugly and unwanted) ive got projects up the wahoo and i dont know where to start - there both due on friday. antonio was joking around and called me a whore - he stuck potatoes in my nose when we were joking around and shit - then he forgot and licked his finger, it was funny but we both felt a little violated after. sigh i always feel like the little american drama queen....shits decent with james, my angel. moms fucking nuts and im going threw caffiene and kool aid withdrawls dont ask me how the fuck that happend - i just dont know....is there a thing as feeling normal anymore?