well, so heres the thing, i dont care about school anymore, as you have noticed james all up and yelled at me, like a bitch. jesse i dont know about him, hes nice and i just dont wanna be with him, hes to dependant. urg! star is gonna find me a cute geek boy. *smiles* yay lol. seeing as mine turned into a major ass. jake is going to arizona for a week with jessica (i hate every chick named jessica now a days with the exeption of jessica pierce.) yeah, i think im gonna go sit in my closet when i get home be like, woot! i live in a closet! lol sorry. anyways, yes, james still believes in me it seems, i should e-mail him and ask, like everytime i used to think i could actually go anywhere in life it was because he told me i could and had the ability, sadly a lot of my memories are painful at least where he is concerned. i found my poetry book and i have a bunch of things he said to me written in there, i dont know, maybe i should tape his picture back together someday soon. thats gonna take a bitchin load of patience, well im gonna go email him....hugs