okay, well, went out lookin for a job yesturday, went over to jesse's and he walked around with me, his neighborhood is crap and the guys were freaking me out, so i held jesse's hand. it was all good and fine till i missed my bus and was freezing my ass off, so i cuddled up next to jesse, like i used to do back in the day. blah de blah, i checked the bus schedule and jesse sliped his arms around my waist, blah de blah, i turned around and he kissed my neck, in that sweet way that makes me want to vommit cause its so discusting (liked it when jake did it though) and well i kissed jesse, the part of it that sucks is, not just once. hes quick to, im odnt wanna date him, but i do and im confused as hell!!! well, anyways, i have lunch with jake today, then im going to drop off applications tonight (three more, yay < bleeding sarcasm) so ill see jesse later tonight, hes all lovey and dont fuck with me and im all, fuck i cant believe i let that happen, hes like, it will be okay, ill help you, and im like no, NEVER AGAIN AM I LISTENING TO THAT BULLSHIT!!! guys are bad.....