yeah...paranoid again...i do not do well with my friends traveling...james is leaving us agian this morning to go on a 14 hour drive to his moms...ok i have to chill right the fuck out i just get way to worried cause he always jokes about crashing and dying...hmmmm WORRIED...my mom is asking all sorts of questions to me now to apparently ive been acting sad lately...ok thats fine and all i can pass that off as one of my trips but if i do anything else shes going to ship me off to the doctor...i came home last night she got home at 4:30 i ate the mcdonalds fries she brought home (the thought of that chicken sandwich made me nausiated and i was full anyways so my 6 year old sister ate it)yuk the though still makes me grossed out, anyways i layed down on my bed at 5:00 and passed right the hell out...i slept until 10:00 i got up and took my platform boots off and i passed out again and slept till 6:30 when she dragged me out of bed...so i slept for 13 and a half hours...whats so bad with that??? its not like its my death instinct acting up (agian read frued and some other psychology stuff youll understand that reference)jeeze i need some water...im seriously dehidrated i havent drank anything since yesturday when i downed that thing of hi - c...well today is saturday...i wonder if my asswhole dad is going to think its worth at least calling me to tell me if he is going to come pick me up or if he is going to just ignore me (his only real daughter) or (my other favorite) come early or late unanounced so i can shove everything in my old backpack with sharpie all over it and rush out the door forgetting something that i need for that day (homework, letters i need to mail, my cell phone so my friends or family can get ahold of me...my wallet i always remeber though....) anyways yeah i wonder....meh oh well if he does remember its saturday ill go with him if he doesnt i will call jess and hang out with him, or i will kidnapp one of my other friends that are worth the effort, they always come willingly cause im bound to do some crazy shit of some sort....oh vacation i can sleep now...meh id rather go give the public a reason to fear the day our generation takes over...at least dumbasses like bush wont get elected...im worried about james