well i hurt lawrence today - called him a stupid fucker, ive got school work up the yoohoo (yeah i meant yoohoo) i wrote james a letter last night and it was all sappy and it was 30 reasons i like him - and i had to go after i read it, so i called him at the usual time and he sounded all different then usual "casey i have something to say" (i though for sure a we cant talk anymore was comming) he had the same tone people have when they give the "we need to talk" speech, and he thought about starting it out that way. THEN he BUSTS out and says: "casey i just wanted to tell you that you are the most romantic beautiful, charming, intelligent, funny, amazing, extroadinary girl i have ever met. and every day i have known you you have just won me over more and more and before today i loved you mostly as a friend but after hearing that letter love lyou as more and as a lover, you lucky im in kansas right now and not next to you otherwise i would have kissed you right now" aw and then the whole night i talked to his romantic side or his super romantic side and like every other 10 minutes one of us would say "i love you"...what did i do for such a great guy????