meh, its just one of those days where i float. and dance, till mom gets home and i have to wash my bedding, cat got in a cat fight, hes sick, he got diarrieha on the end of my bed, at least he had the courtessy to do it where i wasnt sleeping. i really miss james and i went out with jake to lunch again yesturday, did a reading on him and me. it was a good reading but it made me jump. it was just a three card spread but it said enough card one (past): nine of swords card two (presant): the night of cups card three (future): king of cups of course that sent me into a silent mood for the rest of the time i was with him, because of the nine of swords. you see, i used to wake up in the middle of the night and cry becuase of the dreams i would have about losing james (ironicly they came true after he promised me they never would) and the girl in the card was in the exact position i would sit in. i was using my hanson roberts deck which i dont normally use but i felt like it was calling to me the night before. so anyways, i had actually stopped doing tarot again for like maybe two months, i like it though its just i dont have a lot of time on my own so i can work with it alone, everyone always interupts me when im doing it so i stop for a while everynow and then. a month later or so i usually feel like i need to go and use it. my dreams are a lot clearer for a couple weeks and i dont even know how to explain what happens, i start knowing shit and realizing shit but that sounds so freaky my brain wont believe it...