fucking sharpies, it was an accident i swear, i was writting on my water bottle, then i was writting on my pants then becca was like dude this smells good see, so ended up high on perminant markers. bleh, im still kinda fucked up, like everything is blurry, anyways i was going threw the e-mails in my old acount as the drowning one, at my old e-mail place, its amazing how much shit james and i have talked about, i mean holy fuck! thats insane, i flipped threw 27 e-mails looking for this number and it was in the last one, amazing how that allways works, anyways, yeah im just fucking amazed that we have only known each other 7 months and its insane he became my best friend over the summer, i am going to call him tonight hes depressed and i accidently ignored him online, fuck i though i closed the box and i only maximized something else, but still where was i , oh yeah, normally it takes forever for people to gain our trust and i trusted him from the start, it only took me 4 months to gain his trust (as opposed to years) its insane how quickly we became each others best friend, i made a good choice going to him about lawrence last year, he is a very trust worthy guy and i swear the next girl that hurts him is going to die, hes depressed and back 3 states away, i hate every fucking girl that does that shit to guys as sweet as him and i hope there karma really fucks with them, my karma is shitty enough otherwise i would kick there asses, so yeah, i just dont know...i have to babysitt tonight and choir is just not feeling worth it anymore, my head phones eat batteries, im in ranting mode and the human race is stupid and is soon going to end up killing itsself and its enviroment along with it, i turned my stupid essay in but we havent gotten the fucking grades for that back yet, FUCK, im angsty today, and unbelievable touched by the fact that james and i have become best friends, fuck, we started talking alot because i was holding on to our friends billy club and knife, the friend who introduced us to each other, he told james "this girl is fucking awesome, you should talk to her she fucking awesome!" and me to him as "this guy is about the only one in night school who doesnt suck you should meet him" - shit gtg - write more later