well, my best friend has an std, she is scared as hell about dying, and i just broke down like all hell on zach, i dont want to lose her, she held me up so long after the james thing, shes always there to support me and i love her so much...i dont think that ive been there all the time like she has for me, i replied to her email telling her how much i love her and how i will always love her and how no matter what i am not leaving her. i dont fucking care that she slept around a little and caught this stupid std...i love her so much, i could never leave her. she was worried i was going to...im shaking right now, i just fell apart so bad, jesse is going to break up with me, he sent me a pissed off fucking email...but i dont care, guys come and go but my baby girl has been there from day one. with our under the table club (in the tenth grade, no wonder people think were insane) and our going threw guys like they were disposable tissues at a chick flick, and our breakups with people, how loving certain guys at this point comes and goes but we always stay together and were always there individually if we need each other, we disapear from time to time and do our thing but were always there when we need the other....i dont want to lose her.... i mean shit...i need her, and i dont know what i would do without her, well...shes not dead yet and quiet possibly has another twenty years...i hope..