james is beautiful - my neighbor/buddy kay just stoped over and her guy brian is coming home from chicago - shes extatic - im psyched for her - i know the feeling. i feel all good today now even though im drowning in work and completely loathe my body im feel good. its been a good day, i hope it stays that way. i was thinking to myself about my poetry and how i decided not to be a journalist because my writting is crap and nothing more then the mediocre bitching of a teenager with angst. then i decided it didnt matter because i was just weird and nothing really made sence to me, besides the most amazing guy on the planet is completely in love with me. this morning at the bus stop i was holding my little monologue and fucking around starign at the street when i started halucinating worms. thats not good but i dont halucinate to bad and i could never hurt anyone - gtg buh bye