stupid nightmares about stupid jerk again. i hate him...and i hate this lonely hurt feeling inside, i want to cut but ive been so good lately.....my dreams are all these crazy things lately, in the last two weeks in my dreams ive fucked manson (yeah - i liked that one, no complaints here) made out with two of my friends (torture as they would never look at me that way) and yesturdays....that one hurt, woke up in tears.....