grrr headache. mom decided to talk to me again, i am more then a little worried about that, but lets analyze and rationalize, she needs me to babysitt her fucking kids! this makes me mad as well as the e-mail i got from james, he is in a self hating mood (selfdestructive with us to is rare because it would hurt the other person emotionally, i care to much for him to see him hurt), mom and his step dad are fighting (think i went over me calling her mom before), he blames himself, and then thanked me for always cheering him up (i have no clue what i do to cheer him up other then listen and threaten to kidnapp him when he comes home..home being minnesota, where i live,ah well anyways he will be home friday to hang out - this makes me happy!) but yeah i have to get dressed and take care of my head, lawrence might come over to help me with guitar tonight.