crap it didnt save the whole entry, that sucks, so i talked to simon, he gave me a hug it was sweet. hes very soft spoken and gentle, i like that but hes shy around new people. so yeah kinda akward conversation, grandma is in the hospital, so i spent part of thanksgiving in the hospital trying not to cry. (my sister is licking her plate? fuck is she wierd....) so anyways yeah that sucked, james emailed me, so this week all we have done is scream at each other over the internet. he dumped me cause i got really sad and just didnt think there was any hope for anyone in the world, so i guess he got sad to, thats what he says at least. i feel really bad because i seriously freaked out on him threw aim....ive never snapped before and i was freaking out about male thats ever been in my life and how they all just fucking suck, yeah, i wouldnt talk to me either after that....later...