After years of effort on my friends' parts to get me stoned, I figured that I would give it a shot. Now that I've done a few drugs, I figure I don't really have any excuse not to try pot. It was simply a sacred cow I was keeping around for no reason, it seemed. I didn't expect to like it, because I know what it does on a scientific level..... but I did it anyways.

From my experience, I don't like it. I don't know how to describe it.... I had the same hard time balancing that I do while I'm drunk, but I was more mentally aware than I would be if I had been drinking. As it got more and more powerful, it got much more uncomfortable for me... I felt exhausted and lazy.

Then I got sick. This lasted a minute or two, then I moved myself to the couch and passed out. I'm still feeling somewhat hungover right now, and its been almost 12 hours since I passed out.

Based on the reason that apparently I had too much, I might try it again. I dunno though. I feel like before it got too intense, I got a good snapshot of what its supposed to be.... and I didn't really like it. I didn't really enjoy very much at any time throughout the night.

But my buddies got their wish, I gave it a shot, so I can no longer insist that I wouldn't enjoy it while having never given it a chance. I'm no worse off for it.

On a separate note... I'm pretty excited by hanging out with McKenzie (the girl from the other night). We've got a movie night planned tomorrow night, and I'm really looking forward to it. Its weird to have a crush again, I'd forgotten how it felt to have somebody constantly invade your thoughts and push you into daydreaming. Its weird that she's my sister's best friend, to be honest.... I feel like such a stereotypical older brother by having all this happen. Its a bit weird... but in a way, that taboo almost makes it more exciting.

Its probably the best for my emotions that she won't be here for lots of the summer... I could definitely see myself getting attached to her if we spent the whole time together. And then she's off to college in the fall, so she won't be here either. Our time together will be enhanced by its brevity... a perfect summer fling if I ever saw one.

I'm really curious as to what makes her different from the other girls who failed to ignite me the way she has. I can't help but think that it might have something to do with the similarities to Kat.... she's got this spunk to her thats really contagious. Very mischevious. And I can't help but be attracted to that.

Its a strange feeling to have this crush and be thinking of McKenzie all the time, while still being so lovesick for Kat. When I heard from her yesterday... to find out that she'll be staying in Oliver for the next few nights due to her work, it broke my heart a little. A few days without seeing her is going to be weird. I hope she misses me, I hope she thinks of me. I hope she sees that Dave is going to get stale pretty quickly.

In the meantime.... its the perfect time for her to be in Oliver as well. McKenzie is coming over tomorrow night for a movie night, and it'll just be me and her. Not even Demitri will be here.... we'll have the whole house to ourselves.

Regardless of Kat or anything else going on, I know that the night here with McKenzie will inspire me.