No update in a while, huh? Its been busy, all that end of semester stuff... finals start tomorrow, but I'm pretty confident so I'll sit down and write a bit to update my online life.
Whitney disappeared on me again... ah well, I'm feeling so apathetic about it. I really wasted a lot of energy and forgiveness on that girl. No more. /shrug
Tried out for the regional presentation team for SIFE last night... after a week of practicing the script and a few days of practicing mannerisms. Going into it, I kinda felt like I was on the tail end of being ready... some of the people on my team, Emily especially, seemed to just have it ironed out no problem. But once we were up there in front of the judges, reciting our presentation lines... Emily froze, and even Nolan slipped up a few times. I feel like I nailed it... I talked a bit fast (thats my big flaw in public speaking) but other than that I feel like I did an amazing job. We'll find out next week who got onto the team... there's about a 1:1 ratio of accepted/declined when it comes to the tryouts. There's 9 spots and only about 19 people tried out. So my odds are good, I think.
If I get onto the team, I'll be presenting in Calgary in March beside a few more students. We'll be talking about the projects that our SIFE team has undertaken in the last year, and compete against other SIFE teams in western Canada for the regional title. The team which has created the most overall positive economic impact gets the prize. SIFE Okanagan has cleaned house the last few years, we've got a history of winning and I want to be a part of that. I'm a fiercely competitive person, so this sort of thing really gets me going.
I talked to Jackie and told her that I'm tired of living with her. I'm not going to kick her out or go through drastic and malicious routes to get her to leave, I'm just telling her that she needs to find a new place sooner rather than later. She protested at first, and then has sorta realized that all my complaints are completely legitimate. So we'll see how it goes. Its win/win, whether she changes her habits and I back down or she doesn't and I get a new roommate, either way I won't need to put up with her bullshit anymore.
Picked up a chick on the bus on monday. I can't remember how the conversation started, but somehow I managed to start one up with a girl who caught my eye... and it really just flew from there. We ended up exchanging numbers, and texting between then and tonight. She invited me out to the mall tonight just to hang out... and it just felt really natural. She's not at all what I expected from my first impression though... which is good, its gotten me curious. And curiousity is an emotion that has tremendous pull in my life. She ended up coming back here, I made dinner, and we just chilled a bit more... and we had one of those 'moments' just before she left.
Whether or not anything goes anywhere with Brook, it was an amazing feeling to live in one of those special moments again. I don't think there's a word to describe it.... where you're standing in the doorway, and both of you are silent.... you're both nervous, and avoid eye contact for more than a split second at a time due to that nervousness. Hearts are pounding, and the longer the silence goes on the more you know how its going to end, but neither person has the courage in that moment to start the lean forward. But eventually, somebody does, and you share that first kiss.
After that, and a few more as we were hesitant to stop, we said our goodnights and she went home.
The summer was so filled with strife, and the fall semester has really been me reeling and recovering from the summer. But as the winter approaches its middle ground and a new semester is on the horizon, it looks as if life has begun to level out. My loans will be coming in on time, I've already gotten confirmation of that. I've got a few ladies pursuing me, but Brook has really caught my attention so we'll see where that goes.
Life seems to be good again.
Thank you all for listening to all of my problems and contemplations, I'm sure that things wouldn't have been as easy if I didn't have you: my (mostly) invisible audience.