Hoooo boy, yeah, I am *never* ever doing this casual dating thing again. How could I have been so stupid as to assume that people would be easily quantifiable? That there'd be a clear 'best' choice and that I wouldn't feal bad for leaving the others behind? People cannot be ranked with any efficiency; the criteria for each person is so different, they've all got such different virtues and attractive features. You can't date half a dozen people and expect one of them to be the clear 'right' partner for you; thank fucking god I didn't pursue that many women. Thank god my circumstances are so much more simple than that, I'm thankful for it and I've learned my lesson to be sure.

I went to a party at Amanda's place last night.... and honestly in all the commotion with midterms and Miranda, I'd lost sight of something. When I went out with her for sushi all those weeks ago, I actually had a really good time. And hanging out with her again, I had a really great time. I'm starting to like her more and more as I get to know her. She might not have inspired immediate passion in me, but I'm starting to see inklings of a part of her that might very well light me up just the same once I actually get to see it. She's got me curious about what lies behind the veil; and as I've said before, curiousity is a notoriously powerful driving force for me (especially in realms of romance).

She's got me seriously considering letting Miranda go as a possible romantic interest. I mean Miranda and I have the same interests, the same passions, but that could lend itself just the same into an amazing friendship. I don't need to be with her to enjoy our commonalities.

I'm not sure though, I don't want to rush into anything.

I think much more will become clear during or after our next date, which will be sometime this week.