I found out that I'm going to need $200 for an admission deposit to go back to school. Which I don't have, until the government gets around to paying Jackie all the money they owe us for the last 2 years of unpaid child tax benefits for Demitri. Her and I have about $9K coming.... but as per usual, the government is dragging their heels when it comes to handing it over.

But I got a hug today. I didn't realize how depressed I'd gotten until I talked to Jane today and she offered me a hug. And when she offered that, I almost felt like crying. I didn't show it... but wow, the idea of a hug at that moment was the most perfect thing in the world. And she gave me a hug. And it was fucking awesome. I barely see Jane, I'd almost say that I barely know her. But even that, a hug from a pertty girl, was enough to make my day infinitely better.

Fuck I'm lonely.