I was right about the door-to-door sales job; it has completely killed my fear of rejection. The one big hangup I had for meeting ladies has been broken. Before, once I got a girl into conversation I tended to be rock solid... but that icebreaking introduction would terrify me. Not so anymore. Since school started I've met so many pretty girls.... but there's really only 2 that interest me right now. Which is more than I'm used to. I'm usually a one woman guy.... I fall in love too easily, I have a really hard time playing the field because I develop feelings. Just too much of a romantic I suppose.

I met Marion in my OB class, she's an exchange student from nothern France. We went out for dinner and a movie last friday, and just talking with her is amazing because I learn so much about the cultural differences. And god her accent is hot. And her smile, augh, just melts me. And she's so damn mysterious..... I can't flirt with her like I do most girls because the cultural barriers prevent me from accurately reading her reactions to things. So I'm forced to just rely on humor... keep her laughing, right?

Kristi is a friend of Jackie's, they're not very close though, who I met when she came over to hang out one day. Since then, Kristi and I have hit it off... she lives literally down the street at the moment and we've got the most intense physical chemistry. Put us in a room alone together and we honestl just can't keep our hands to ourselves, its almost embarassing. She's a mom too, so she understands everything with Demitri and doesn't get at all awkward about the fact that I'm a dad.

They're both amazing girls, and I honestly want to stay in the middle for the moment because they both appeal to very different sides of me. Marion is exotic and exciting, she keeps me on my toes because I don't know what to expect. I can't get involved with her because she's leaving back to France in a few months. Kristi is fun and I can relate to her as a parent.... and god she's just gorgeous. I lay in my bed with her and I honestly feel like I should congratulate myself. But she's going through a lot in her life right now and the last thing she needs is a boyfriend, although she and her ex broke up a good 6 months ago he's still causing problems so relationships are not first in her mind.

Right now, more than anything I fear losing my balance and falling one way or the other. More likely I'll fall to Kristi because she's around me more often, we relate to one another better, and the physical chemistry is quite simply breathtaking. But there's something haunting about Marion that I just won't let myself let go of just yet. Not until I explore the mysteries she offers.