Jackie (Demitri's mom) and I looked at an apartment in Kelowna the other day. Its fantastic, its right across the street from the College and overall the apartment was fantastic as well. Its even on the 3rd floor... the building itself is only 4 floors, so I was happy. I like being high up... growing up in a small town like Oliver has given me a taste for tall buildings. I think the only complaint that I might have is the fact that I'll be moving back in with Jackie... its been 2 years since I left her, and I'm not looking forward to living with her again. We've mended our friendship, but I'd still like to keep her at an arm's length. Chances are, this will only last a semester... right now, we need the financial stability that the other offers, but 4 months from now we'll probably be able to find other roommates that would be better suited to us.

Seeing the apartment was really nice though. It reminded me that all my bullshit is almost done. Less than 2 weeks from now, I will be able to put it all behind me. New city, new apartment, new semester at school. No more stressing about money, because student loans will be here and I'll be able to pay my bills. No more (or at least less) dwelling on Kat and all that has happened... in Kelowna I'll have things to distract myself with. To top it off I've got a dinner date planned with a woman named Holly, who I met when we had some classes together 2 years ago when I first started my program. I was instantly attracted to her, but never made any moves... well recently we've gotten to talking a bunch, and I invited her over for dinner once I get the place worked out. She accepted, and I can't wait to entertain a gorgeous woman. It'll remind me once more that I can make somebody happy... I'm not some horribly flawed man, but rather just a great guy whose had a horrible streak of luck. Kat was the one who was flawed... her decisions were wrong, not mine.

I can't wait to feel like my own man again. Living with my mom, it puts me lower on the totem pole than I'm used to being. I want to be in control, and be able to do my own thing my own way.

The less I talk to Kat, the better I feel. Getting to Kelowna will keep me completely occupied.

I hope.